All I want is to find balance, to give and receive equally. There is so much to offer, so much space to spread arms wide and spin, like a planet, like a pinwheel. Yet I'm at the mercy of things so much greater than I, things that will never have solid shapes in my mind like all the unknowable forces of existence, all the infinitesimal equations that keep the matter of the universe in motion, the science of magic, wonder-lust. I just need to keep looking and looking. So I peel back rib after rib, digging for an answer, a soul-shaped thing.